Well, it’s over. I really thought this was it. That I was done searching. But here I am, exactly one month after dedicating the largest post I’ve ever done to her, dedicating another post to Krystle Zych.
I hadn’t talked to her since Sunday afternoon, and today it really hit me that we should probably talk. You know, to have some semblance of a relationship. But I was scared. I didn’t know why, but I just felt like something was going to go wrong, and that I should just put it off. I did for as long as I could, but then I called her as she was leaving work. She hadn’t left yet, so she said she’d call on her way back. She didn’t, so I had to wait till I got back from the evening Homecoming session to call her. And even then, I put it off till I could stand it no longer.
I was right to fear.
She hadn’t called because she didn’t have time. I mean, not like she didn’t make time for me, she literally did not have time to talk to me. Going to school full time and working full time is taking its toll on her, emotionally and physically. She’s lost weight in the last few months, and she passed out at work today. She hasn’t been able to get her homework done, let alone make time for me. I asked her what we should do, and she said that we should just be friends. Again.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t blame her for anything. It’s just that I figured that after these couple years here on campus without any luck with girls, then her coming back to me after all these years, that maybe this would be it. You know, God had given me what He wanted after all this time. There was really no other way to explain us getting back together. But it didn’t work out, again.
I really do love Krystle. Maybe if things had been different, if our relationship never had to have been long distance, we might have worked out. But we didn’t.
This post is dedicated to Krystle Zych. Pray for her.